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Age 53
Birthday March 2
Diet Omnivore
weight 220 lb
Height 5' 10"
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In relationship? Single
Sign Pieces
Smoking? No, quit in 2010
Drinking? No, quit in 2008
Drugs? No never
Pets None
Kids? 1 daugher. I don't see her. It was an agreement with her mother. I will tell the reason later.
Gender Male
Sexual orientation Heterosexual. Only interested in woman
Education Bachelor Degree
Religion Spiritual
Political Believes More republican view
Living situation with my Mom
Languages spoken English, Russian
Etnicity European
What Industry I Work in? Information Technology. Programming
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Do you think people who have entered this country illigaly should be deported? Yes, all of them
Do you think millitary should ban transgender people from service? No
Should we be fighting to close gender wage gap? Yes, it's rediculous there is a gap
I would rather vote for candidate whose policies significantly benefit society more than me
How often do you take selfies? Rarely
Do you like writing lists? No
Its your first date. Do you split the bill, pay the whole bill or have them pay the whole bill? Pay the whole bill.
Are you a coffee snob No, i'll drink anything
Do you prefer your partner votes for the same political party as you do? Yes
How often do you go to the place of worship? Never
What do you do when new season of your favorute netflix show drops? Binge it with multiple breaks
Do you think celebrities should share their political opinions? No, they should stick to their area of expertise
Would you rather cook your own food or order a takeout? Order a takeout
Do you like true crime shows, books and etc.? Yes
Do you think social media contributing to Fake News? Yes, definately
Are you open to casual relationship? i.e. more then hook up, less then significent other? Yes, only if my partner is reliable one.
Would you for any reason read your mate email or pose as them online without their knowledge or permission? No, I'd trust them and that would be invasive.
How much influence or control do your parents hold over your life? I'd consider their opinion, but would do it my way.
How open are to trying new things in bed? Very open, to try at least once.
How Tara was born :)

Since the young age I have always been into cross-dressing. That was also my biggest secret because I grew up in the environment where such things were unacceptable. I was also afraid of rejection if the person I am with would find out my secret. Every time I've started a relationship (I've been married twice) the thought of her finding out and rejecting me was pushing me into a state where I wasn't honest with her. She felt that I am hiding something and slowly things start to break also because I was not completely with her but in my own closet. I met few good women, but always the relationship ended in few month or weeks, all because I've been hiding in my closet. In 2009, I've decided to be honest with new women and tell her my secret... surprisingly it went a lot better than I expected, and she was fine with my desires for cross-dressing. Everything went well and in 3 months she became pregnant, and we were happy about it. 3 months into the pregnancy, she suddenly decides that she is not fine with my cross-dressing and left me. I was begging her to come back, but it was all for nothing. I became so angry that I decided that since this desire is causing me so much trouble all my life, I must go out of the closet and try to live openly as a woman... I thought that since I love to wear women’s clothes, I must be a woman inside trapped in the men body.

In 2011, I openly went to work dressed as a woman. With help of some psychologists of course. 5 years I lived as a woman, taking hormones, but being alone since I made it in my mind that nobody would be friends with or date somebody like me. Finally, I came to realize that I am not a woman, I am male to the bone. It's just a cross-dressing, nothing more. Since I've been in isolation for so long, it's difficult to get back on track with depression in my head. But I will continue to fight through this depression and go back to be able to live a full life.

Since 2016 I went to multiple research studies that studies drugs and other ways to help treat a depression. The last one is called the VNC Implant. It's actually implanting that implant under your collarbone and very thin wire wrapped around the vagus nerve in the neck. It vibrates every 5 minutes and stimulates the vagus nerve. Furthermore, it supposes to help brain fight depression. It seems it's working for me. I started studying the skills I lost through years of depression, being completely isolates and out of work.